This past February, I found out I was pregnant after trying for 7 months prior. The waiting and trying was not new to me, since it took 27 months of trying to conceive my son who was born July 2012. So I waited a week and told my husband the good news on Valentine's Day. It was so perfect and we were ecstatic. The weeks went along and my first OB appointment came up. I was given an ultrasound, but there was nothing to be seen and no heartbeat to be heard. I was supposed to be 6 weeks along. So they scheduled another ultrasound a week later. No good results. I was then sent to the Radiology Department of the hospital for a confirmation. Sure enough, there was no healthy growing baby. No heartbeat. I was diagnosed with a blighted ovum and given the option to either schedule a D&E or miscarry naturally. I chose to wait since I was scared to be admitted for it. I was also in denial.
A few weeks went by and I couldn't take the wait anymore so I scheduled the procedure. To my dismay, two days before my procedure, I had a natural miscarriage. Honestly, it was the most frightening thing I've ever gone through. I was checked out at the ER and sent home later that night as it was deemed "complete." I cried for days.
After awhile, I started to feel as if everything would be okay. My husband and I went on to keep trying and, soon enough, I was pregnant again! This time I found out and told him on Father's Day weekend. We were excited but cautious. Given the lost pregnancy in April, I was doubtful if I could even say I had suffered a loss since there was never a heartbeat or a physical body. But after receiving some support from some mommy friends I have online, I know that my body did house an angel that was too precious to stay.
I am proud to say that everything is going very well with my third pregnancy and our rainbow Baby J will make his/her appearance in February next year. :)
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